hey sreeti, u prbbly dont knw me nor wil eva care to knw me eva. dont worry im nt a stalker nor am i here to bug u since i knw uve got lots on ur hands.
jst so u knw im divya a girl in ur colg. the reason im writing this to u is becos unconsciously ofcourse u wer the cos of an outburst of grief in my life.
lemme tell u how.
it ws my mst desired dream to get into iit.
i gave the exam bt jst made it to the extended list.
it crushed me.i hd worked very hard.since i ws so convinced ill get into iit, i dint study much for aieee or cet so i scored a 115 in aieee n a 158 in cet.
nevertheless i got admission into thadomal one of the best engineering colleges in the city. i dint take it. i ws too depressed. i cudnt explain to my mom why i dint take it. its actually cs i ws dead inside. this hd happend to me before too.i hd wntd to go to ruia colg bt got stuck in khalsa inspite of a 89.84% in 10th grade.
this was the last straw.
i cudnt take it ne longer.so i decided i needed a break while i told evryone i wntd to give iit again.the truth is ill neva give it again. im so tired of struggling that i cant take it ne longer.my relationships wer all falling apart.i wntd to keep myself as busy as possible.i ws so depressed i ws thinkin of ways to kill myself-in other words i ws contemplating suicide.
to banish this thot frm mind i tried to keep myself as busy as usual.bt in colg i found out that bsc hd the worst crowd eva n the studies cudnt keep me busy. so i decided to join the sdu becos apparently there ws so much work to do. i thot once i get into it ill be busy fr atleast a year.
it meant so much to me to join the sdu that my whole life literally depended on it. i ws a bundle of nerves. n thats where i faultered. i ws a nervous wreck in front of u cs u wudnt believe wht it meant to me. n as expectd i dint get a call. u cn imagine hw much it wud hve meant that i remember the whole conv with u which happnd lik over 3 months ago.
point is i think u shud b a lil mre easy on the ppl u interview.
u killed my confidence.u killed my hope.dont do it again.
lastly i wnt to clarify taht this is in no way n attempt to get pity or nethng,infact dont even recognise me or eva tlk to me abt this.pretend lik it neva happend. jst go on with ur life. im no one to tell u what to do.
lstly i beg of u dont be angry thinking im telling u what to do.dont make a laughing stock of an already withered soul.so plz id love it if u dint tell this to neone.
thanks a mill
divya